dear future baby.

(disclaimer: I am not, I repeat not, pregnant.) Dear future baby,

I have been thinking about you a lot lately. Perhaps because four of my friends are pregnant, or maybe because we just crossed another item off our pre-baby bucket list. Oh well, it doesn't really matter why....I just wanted you to know that I was thinking about you today.

I was daydreaming and wondering what you'll be like. Wondering if you'll be a boy and be great at sports like your dad. Or if you'll be a girl and have long eyelashes like I do. Maybe you'll like to write, or maybe you'll love music. Either way, you're going to be so smart—I just know it.

Sometimes I wonder what it will be like to hold you, and just stare at you for hours. I know you'll be so perfect that I won't be able to take my eyes off of you. I can't wait for that day. I can't wait for the day when I am less selfish because I am too busy caring for and loving you to worry about anything else. You are going to change me, in a good way.

I have no idea when to expect you, and that's okay. I just wanted you to know that I think about you often, and I pray for you too. I pray that I will be a good mom to you someday, and that Brett will be a good dad. I pray that you will always see the love that we have for each other, and the love that we have for you.

Until then, your dad and I will be enjoying this time to ourselves. We are seeking out adventures, laughing a lot, and learning lessons we need to learn before you get here. We are very much in love and can't wait to meet you someday.

Know that you are already loved.

-A